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  • God at Work

    The last one month has been a roller coaster of emotional ups and downs. Hard to quantify. But today I am reminded again on why. God is seriously working on me and he has to ensure I am robust and stable enough! Boy is it tough. Going through the fire like clay to come out hardened. My faith is being tested.

    James 1:2, 4-5 NIV
    [2] Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,
    [4] Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. [5] If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.

    Hanging on to this scripture alone is enough to give me hope and make me understand why. That all is working out and it can only get better.

    Lord give me the wisdom, give me clarity and make the plan plain for me. Amen.

    I am like clay in your hands, ready to be moulded to anything you deem fit. I give up control to you.

  • Insecurities

    I know the insecurities I Feel today is a thing of the past.  I know the devil is working overtime to try and attack my mind to distract me from the plans God is trying to lay in my heart, thoughts and mind. But I am already in a place of victory because Jesus has overcome this battle. The devil already lost the battle, so his  schemes cannot prevail over my life.

    I will remain who God has called me to be. I will do the things that feel right. Because I do it for God and not for man. Trust God, Fear God, Obey God and love your neighbor.

    Thank you Lord for a new day. It is a privilege I do not take for granted. I focus on today and in the present. Tomorrow is for God to sort out and yesterday is a lesson I learn and improve from.

    Thankful for D. For total healing and a sense of normalcy. Thank you that the difficult period of June and early July is over.  Indeed you are mighty lord. For that alone is eternal gratitude that his story did not finish different. Thank you Lord.

    For my T.  Thankful for this gift you saw fit to give us.  You are mindful of me father. She will grow in love and knowing you Lord. She will know peace and joy that comes from you.

    The heaviness will be lifted.  Thank you in advance Lord.

  • Open Mind 2

    Keep an open mind. Do not let the devil get a hold of your mind. Let go and Let God. Trust God and trust his presence in your life. God is good. He wants me to experience peace that transcends understanding.

    Thank you L for the very random conversation with Lo. A reminder to let go and Let God. He reminds me of his existence in everything. God can heal and fix everything even if it has happened fpe years. Thank you for healing Lo.

  • Open Mind

    Today I was reminded that the journey in December was for a reason.

    What does God have in store for me? I do not know if I am honest.  But what I do know is that the plan is Awesome!

    Thankful for the vessel you used in reminding me this morning that you are mindful of me, that the plans you have for me is the best one yet. Thank you Y for appreciating me. That was timely without you knowing.

    I am excited today 14th Jan for the year 2026. I know the next few months will be mind blowing and all you have done lord is lay the groundwork in my spirit. You started the journey in 2025 of strengthening my mind in the most challenging way. It was hard, really hard, harder than I imagined but I knew you would give me clarity and also heal my mind. I came out  intact for one singular reason, that I read your word every single day of the year bar maybe 2 or 3 days. Thats a 1st.

    December was a month of reflection, triggered by honest conversations and I am grateful for friends that can be honest even if it hurts. Thank you for the word to me as well via T. You are ontime.

    2026 = FOCUS

    Whatever I do, I remind myself to stay Focused. Focused on Gods word, Focused on enjoying the moment, Focused on the plan at hand, Focused on my mind, Focused on my family, Focused on being a vessel that can be used by God, Focused on helping 1 person. Focused and not distracted.  Getting inspiration where I can and Focused on hearing Gods word and acting on it.

  • Messy Steps

    2026 started funny. My mind was a mess. But one thing I knew was God was with me. I knew that it was temporary and part of God’s plan. It has been a journey of surrender.  A journey of not knowing what the best next step should be. A journey of just surrender to his will and his plan. I hear something and I act, without second guessing the end plan. A journey of absolute trust in Gods love for me. Who am I that you are mindful of me? As I listened to Pastor Steve preach Your Next Messy Step, I knew God woke me up just to hear this message today. I almost missed it because I didnt have my phone. Thankful I listened to the Holy spirit.

    My next steps will not be perfect because I am not perfect.  My next steps will be undertaken in fear, in uncertainty, in confidence, in happiness   because my condition is not what is important . What is important is trusting Gods plan and Gods Love for me. God works when I am asleep.  My best plans is nothing compared to Gods least plan for me.

    As God whispers in my ears positive thoughts, so does the devil get to whisper counter  thoughts, but what I have learnt is not to believe those negative thoughts.  God is my anchor.

    Gen 28. When  Jacob fled his home because esau was after him for stealing his birthright. God can use me even when I make terrible mistakes.

    I did something I haven’t done in a very long time. Something that didnt cross my mind. I repented to God for my sins. For the wrong words that came out of my mouth, the wrong thoughts that were in my head. For not being obedient to his words. Forgive me lord for I have sinned.

    This is me cheering my self on 9.38am 11th Jan 2026. To the messy steps I will take this year, I take them because God has got me and I take them because it is not my plan that will save me, but Gods Plan. It is not my step that matters because God has already made a step towards me.

  • 365 Days ✅️.

    This has been a test of discipline and consistency. On day 185 I missed 1 day of reading the Bible. I was gutted. I almost gave up, focusing on the miss rather than focusing on the win. I contacted the Bible app team and explained my goal. They reinstated my streak🙏🏽. Lesson: find solutions, keep moving and never let failure stop you.

    I started the year 2025 with a singular goal. I knew deep down that writing goals or setting objectives was not what I was meant to do. I entered the year in a state I couldn’t understand, but I had one singular clear thought. Read your Bible.

    Reflecting on this, this is what I was always meant to do, but boy did 2025 become the toughest year mentally for me. I documented where I could my thoughts and my reflections. The year hurt on many levels. I was reminded that I express myself better in the written word. I tried to write when I could face it.

    I know God has given me A skill set to help. I prayed when I was 13, I wanted to be a lender(giver) and not a borrower (receiver) One person at a time. Most times behind closed doors and behind the scenes. I have been called to solve problems. I am loyal. I am a helper. It is who I am.

    Gods word is love and also a tough pill to swallow in some aspects (cue some old Testament chapters!). But the overarching message I got and which is my Mission statement are:

    Obey God

    Fear Him

    Trust God

    LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOUR.

    That is all I need to do. His plans are my plans. He has always always taken care of me. My family is entrusted to him. I will stop worrying,  focusing only on him. My Career has always been dictated by God. I received two timely words this year which shocked me to the core. It reminded me again that Abba Father Loves me.

    *No Confusion, Only Clarity*

    The Lord is saying to you,  *there will be no confusion for you at work*
    The fog lifts.
    The uncertainty dissolves.
    The questions that once clouded your mind are being replaced with divine clarity.

    For the Lord Himself has *made a clear path for you*  a straight way, a guided lane a divinely illuminated track.

    “I will go before you and make the crooked places straight” Isaiah 45:2.
    Nothing about your next steps is random. Heaven is intentional about you.

    He says,
    “My dynamism
    My power is at work in you.”
    You are not navigating by your own strength, not relying on your own intellect.
    The Spirit of God is actively, presently, powerfully at work within you *“both to will and to do of His good pleasure”* hallelujah Philippians 2

    And the Lord invites you now:
    *“Take a fresh breath of My Ruach.”*
    Breathe in My Spirit. Breathe in My life. Breathe in My wisdom. For the breath of God brings alignment, illumination and peace.

    As you inhale His Ruach, *clarity will grace your brows*
    You will carry a quiet confidence.
    Answers will come easily.
    Decisions will flow. Peace will settle on you like oil.
    For *“the spirit of man is the candle of the Lord”* Proverbs 20:27 and your candle is being freshly lit.

    EL Roi says:
    No confusion.
    No fear.
    No hesitation.
    My path for you is clear,
    and My power in you is active.

    Walk in that clarity, in Jesus’ mighty name. Amen Amen Amen

    I am in AWE of GOD. I read through some of my write ups this year and I can see every single step has been orchestrated by Him.

    Thank you father, for the gift of your words.

    2026 = FOCUS ON GOD and with that comes clarity. It is time to build. I Know that God has gone before me. I just need to stand confident knowing he has done it.

  • Private

    I’m going forward by reverting back to me. Filtering and choosing. Feeling comfortable in my skin to not conform to the general. Being confident in who I am in God. I am unique.

  • My God of the Impossible.

    Nothing is impossible

    You do not lie you do not fail.

    What is hard for you to do? It doesn’t exit.

    According to your knowledge and your will for me, what you said you have done. I just need to align. Because you are not a Man that changes your mind.

    My confidence is you.

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  • Hurt

    I found out my words hurt two people I care about and like.

    I never intended that. I pray that my actions over time and even after I unintentionally caused the hurt spoke louder than words. God sees my heart.

    Hurt people can unintentionally hurt people. 2023 was hurtful. Jan 2024, I was in a world of pain and couldn’t express it.  It took breaking down in March 2025 to process the hurt of the last few years compounding over. I reflected that I never asked for help. On some level, I expected to be helped but no one seeing me knew I needed help. Catch 22 right?

    I am sincerely sorry.