I know I am not ok when I blow up the smallest of issues into the biggest deals. It is my minds way of not focusing on major issues. Is it good or bad? I really do not know atimes. On some level it means I do not focus on major issues thereby escalating them, on the other hand it means the recipient of my small issue blow ups is left perplexed as to why a none issue has gotten me so worked up.
I know I am worked up when I start repeating the supposed issue over and over again. Almost like I believe the other party would not fully hear and understand until I say it about 10 times. Not a great habit.
A recent one… a double hotel booking that I know would somehow be resolved, and worse case, would hurt the bank account.
I sometimes in my mind float out and listen to myself and think…Folake….slow down…be kind to yourself and others!
On reflection, I figured out what the underlying issue is. I am nervous about an upcoming trip. My mind is just not connecting and that is bugging me. Nothing gets me more excited than knowing I can get on a plane. So when I can not muster up excitement, it’s major. This feels like dejavu to 3 years ago…precisely Christmas time, too. I was worried about flying during covid post hubbys treatment. We went and came back safely….so why does worry sometimes creep in to overshadow?
Mind over matter.
The mind is the strongest none physical organ of the body. It’s up to me to keep training my mind.
Proverbs 4:23 NIV
Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.
Be mindful of what you allow into your thoughts and emotions, It can influence your actions and decisions.