Yep, today is Day 149 of reading my Bible. Safe to say, I am chuffed about this and now have an abject fear of missing 1 day and my Bible app counter turning to zero! I shiver in terror at that thought! LORD, PLEASE HELP ME STAY ON TRACK!
I am using the plan by Nicky and Pippa Gumbel as that gives me a guide on books and chapters to read. The antidotes are usually interesting and double as life lessons, and their views on the passages are useful guides. My interpretation of some of the verses differs, and that is where it gets interesting.
The Old Testament is no joke to read. It has turned my head upside down. The book of Judges and Joshua, in fact, going back to preceeding chapters, has been challenging to come to grips with. Only the Holy Spirit can interpret those books, and I know I have to come back again and reread. I look forward to it.
Have I gotten my answers in month 5? Hmmm, not quite, but things are beginning to get clear. I wrote on 1st December I am on a journey not realising I would indeed go on a journey of myself.
I know who I am, and I have always been extremely comfortable with who I am. But facing who I am is a different ball game.
I let things go, I give, expecting nothing in return. But why is that? Is it because it’s who I am? Or am I protecting myself from potentially hurting? I know I deserve to receive love and support, too. Or is it because I understand that we humans are flawed, or is it because I believe the only person you can really afford to depend on is God and yourself. The thing is, God helps and supports through other humans too….
A million thoughts still boils down to one phrase. Be yourself and be your authentic self. I am happy when I give and that is one of my purpose, and God sends the exact support I need through the most unusual ways. Why do I suddenly want to dictate the support I think I need 💭 Let go and Let God.
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